Number twenty-three.

One day we made a studio out of my living room
to kill some time recording songs,
and I wore sunglasses when I sang the one about you,
so you wouldn't misread my eyes and take it wrong.





Baby, I can't figure it out
Your kisses taste like honey
Sweet lies don't gimme no rise up
Fool, what you're trying to do

Number twenty-two.

This is really cool! [click to enlarge]




my 27 millionth cousin, 23 million times removed was a kitty cat ^__^

all i wanna do is this:




nope. back to writing a ten page paper on cheetahs!

Number twenty-one.

OKAY. so every time i feel like writing a post i remember that (1) nobody reads it and (2) it just gives me an excuse to talk about myself. whatevs. so i have been up since 10am yesterday morning. i stayed up alll night to write a term paper for my Wildlife Management class. i finally finished around 6:30 this morning. why am i not sleeping? because if i fall asleep i will never wake up. so i got coffee, am currently eating a bowl of oatmeal, and figured "why not write a new post?".

i am officially going to Scotland next semester. yay! i'm really excited. originally i was all eh about it but i think it'll be a great experience. i got informational packets in the mail as well as an oversized tee-shirt.

so with this big trip coming up, i was thinking about long-distance relationships. do they work? or do they not? i personally am not a fan of long-distance relays. especially when you go abroad, i feel like you would be missing out on a lot of things because of your S.O. at home. or you would spend a good chunk of time worrying about your S.O. but at the same time, having someone waiting for you at home could prevent you from whoring around. and then what about meeting somebody abroad? aren't those relationships doomed from the start? i feel like it would be so hard to be with somebody, knowing that you'll have to leave him/her in a couple months. or maybe i am just being pessimistic. long-distance relationships are not my thang. but to each his own.

Number twenty.

debating debating debating about going abroad. my mom finally convinced me that i should. regardless if i stay or go, i will be missing out on things either way. but if i stay in the fall, then i'll be missing out on studying abroad. which is a big deal. technically i only need to take 3 more classes to finish my major and graduate. so if i stayed in the fall i would be wasting a semester by taking random classes that i don't really need. so scotland is my choice. i will be paying the deposit and turning in my transcript this week. eek! i'm really nervous. but i feel like it's something i need to do. and i think it'll be a good experience though. def. i'm a little worried about my apartment lease though because there is a chance that i won't be able to come back to live there when i return in the spring. but whatever. i can always commute from home. although it will be my last semester.

i turn 21 on thursday. i feel old. after this birthday i won't really be looking forward to any other birthdays. i'm not ready to be an adult. this is also the first birthday in the past 3 years that i will be single. weird?? liberating.

this semester has been really strange for me. there are so many people in my life who i have lost contact with and i really miss them. a lot of my friends are abroad. and sometimes i feel so lonely. but i am super appreciative of the people who are present in my life (you all know who you are) and who make an effort to reach out to me even if i suck at it sometimes.

so i get to make a birthday wish right? this is early but i probably won't update for a while. so...

i wish that people (myself, included) can find peace and happiness within themselves. and just be happy with who you are and what you have. forget the past, and move on toward the future.

Number nineteen.

I am ready to go abroad. Ohh the places you can go.

Scotland.


Thailand.


French Riviera.


Those are my three options right now.

Scotland has full curriculum courses and I can choose from environmental science, bio, geog classes.

Thailand is focused on globalization and development. The courses I'd have to take are: The Human Perspective on Development and the Environment, Field Research, Social Research Methods, and Thai language classes.

French Riviera offers science and tech classes so I can take various bio, envi sci, and geology classes. It also has physics and chem classes.

Technically, I don't need to take classes abroad that would fulfill my major requirements since I only need to take 3-4 more courses to graduate. Soo I could potentially go anywhere?

I don't know where to go...all I know is that I am so ready to get out of here!

Eeny, meeny, miney, mo?

RIP Alexander McQueen

You were a real visionary and inspiration. Especially to my older sister. You will be missed but your legacy continues in all young, aspiring designers. RIP.

Number eighteen.

Radio show was today. i'd like to say that it went off without a hitch, but unfortunately we hit many technological snags. first we couldn't get the music to play. but it was just an oversight on my part and i didn't hit the aux buttons. but then AC's aux wasn't working so she had to restart her computer. but aside from all that shizz, it was still beary beary fun and pleasant. next week we'll own it.

lately i've been making birthday cards for people in PSP because i'm on the inner-chapter relations committee. and i must say these cards are fantastic. who knew i was artistic?








SooOOOo, it's snowing! we're supposed to get around 20 inches this weekend. so UMD was closed today. went to the grocery store yesterday and stocked up on foood.

OH also, i think i'm going to be vegetarian. i'm taking an animal welfare class and we watched a video on slaughterhouses. it was so horrible. i usually don't fall for this propaganda shizz but, well...you know how i am about animals. so i haven't eaten meat since Tuesday. i want to keep a balanced diet though. so we'll see how it goes.

speaking of animal welfare, in class the TA brought up interesting points on what are feelings and what are emotions. how do you define "a feeling" or "an emotion"? it's hard. do animals have feelings and/or emotions? and i thought it was interesting how she defined them.

emotion: a visceral automatic response to the environment or internal processes; difficult or impossible to control consciously
feeling: a more cognitive, conscious experience; something that might be controlled consciously

so emotion is what you instinctively get from chemicals in your brain. like fight or flight... like fear, love, hurt, etc etc.
feelings can be controlled. i.e. i feel sad because yogiberry is closed then i'll get over it soon. or i feel happy because i got chipotle instead.

you know those buddhist monks who train themselves to separate from their emotions? i think that's cool. they must be very well disciplined. i wonder how life would be if we didn't have emotions. if we didn't feel the butterflies in our stomachs from somebody saying "i love you" or if we didn't feel that tug in our chest when receiving bad news. maybe we can control emotions like how we control feelings. life might be easier that way?